Happy Monday people!
I know it has been a while! I have had the most interesting first quarter of 2019 and from the title, you can already tell that it’s a journey of sorts. First of all, I started a prayer group on Whatsapp called ” War Room 2019.” How it started is a story for another day, just know I was not sure what I was doing when I started it.
You see, I remember being the stubborn born again girl. Yes, I was the girl in teens church, who got pregnant! I was the girl who dated someone of the opposite faith and would defend my actions and my love, fiercely. To get to the point of offering leadership and guidance to 256 women, young and old, with only 34 known personally to me, is a big deal.
I have attempted to exit to the group. You know, then realize, oops, I am the admin. So I sought God and enlisted help from some sisters, and made them admins. At least now, should I leave, Whatsapp won’t guilt trip me.
I wanted to exit when I thought it was my responsibility to keep the group upbeat. I am an extrovert. I love it when people are interactive and chatty (or typee). I draw energy that I give. Most of the time, I am positive vibes all the way! I would beat myself up every time someone left the group. Like, How are they leaving a Christian group!!! I would be excited when new people joined because we started off as three and slowly grew to 20 then alas, full. I got so scared of being wrong, or quoting the wrong scripture! Fear of not being a perfect servant for God was really engulfing me.
Let me tell you, I was doing the most. In addition to sharing and praying, I would make scripture images and share music. The whole shebang. I was burning out spiritually. I burnt out. I could not even pray. One day, I reached out to Shikoh, and just said what should I do? She said, nothing. Just pray and listen to God’s voice and follow Him. This is His house now, let Him run it. Not her exact words, but after many back and forth messages, this is what she was trying to get me to understand.
Many times, we are asked to seek God’s voice and His will for us. We go into His presence very noisily and still expect to hear. Moreover, we come already convinced about what we want Him to say and so very little listening happens.
My greatest desire is to please God with how I live. I want to serve God with how I live and in how I live. This group is my service to Him and as my master, I am amazed at His favour. I might not be where I want to be, but I am definitely not where I started from. I have learnt how to teach the word of God. I have learnt how to mourn the death of strangers grandma’s. I have learnt to how to celebrate job interviews and new jobs. Even when no action was happening on my end.
God works. Prayer works. My encouragement to you is to stick to the course. My encouragement to you is to keep seeking God, even when you feel cold in His presence. I encourage you to keep feeding your spiritual man, for that word, will not return to the Lord void.
My most solid encouragement is that it is not by power, not by might, but by His spirit says the Lord. We are saved by grace and not by deeds. The righteousness of Christ is our biggest resource. May this week come with the right amount of grace to see you through. may you also resolve, that you will get there, no matter what.
Let us Pray.
Thank you for being such a gracious father.
Thank you for loving us enough to draw us to you. You created us for your pleasure and as yours, we know that we are precious and worthy.
Father I pray for this coming week, I ask you to go before us and to make our path straight.
I pray for encouragement for all those seeking jobs, new business opportunities, investment opportunities, that you may meet their needs according to your riches in glory.
I pray for those staying home with little ones and those praying for you to bless them with little ones.
I pray for those enjoying their marriages and ask you to sustain their marriages. I pray for those in a bad place in their marriages and pray that you may restore love. I pray for those desiring to get married, that you may draw them close to you first before handing them over to their significant other. I also thank you for those who being alone, with you, is all they desire.
Be with our children as they go to school and come back. Be with our nannies as they stay home and care for our homes.
Let no evil come near our dwelling and let no weapon fashioned against us prosper.
With long life, you will satisfy us and show us your salvation.
In Jesus name we pray, Amen.
Thanks for stopping bye and I pray that you have a lovely week.
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